I Did It!

Yes i finally did it. My team finally went live and we have got excellent response from the market. The concept has clicked and our hard word has finally paid off. I recieved a big email from my client thanking me for all my time and efforts that I put in this project. According to him its going far better than he expected. I had played multiple roles in this project. I hired, I trained, I managed, I understood the system, I mapped out processes.... whew!

Now looking back I dont know what made me manage so many things. I dont know how I managed to get through all this. And what scares me is I did it while I was still struggling to get the other critical client on board with presentation and stuff. Although its too early to judge anything, we are sure that with the way things are rolling out we have caught the market pulse. Now we just have to wait for the season to kick off. Even during off season we are being considered a hit!

At least now mom you would be proud of me. You once said you were not concerned with what I achieved in my professional life. Now does it make a difference? Or do I still need to be like others and want conventional and regular things from life?

To Say or Not to Say

maine kuchh kaha aur usne kuchh kaha nahi
bas yahi gum hai aur to kuchh hua nahi

aisa nahi ki usne sunke unsuna kar diya mujhe
bas maine jo mehsus kiya usne kabhi kiya nahi

dil ki baat batakar uska bharosa to jeeta maine
magar ab apne aap par bharosa mujhe raha nahi

use masoom kahu laparwah kahu ya zalim kahu
woh meri baat smajhkar bhi jo samjha nahi

chand roz guzar jaane do woh bhul jayega use
chhoti si dil ki baat thi koi lamba vakiya nahi

jo dil toota ho kabhi kisi ki khamoshi se
woh dil kisi ke alfazo se kabhi juda nahi

For things that werent' left unsaid but were certainly avoided or left unheard.

Today I Celebrate

Yes i did it Crissie. I finally made somebody blush today. You always accused me of being too prim and proper all the time. You used to tell me to let go of all decencies and become crude for one day. I did it today. Well not for the whole day but yes I did become indecent with a friend today and she was totally surprised. And boy she blushed like anything. We had such a great time. We were laughing so hard at our work station that people started asking us what was wrong. Obviously we didnt tell them what was wrong. But yes we had a great time goofing around.

Jane & Maura - Jealous Bickering

Was just goofing around with some rizzoli and isles videos and found this one really hilarious. Jane is cute when jealous. she wants her nose to be in everything related to maura and feels so left out here. angie harmon does a good job here.

Funny Side of Criminal Minds

I love criminal minds, no doubt about it. But what i like the best about this show is the way they weave in humor with the gory and dark side of serial killings. This is one of my favorite Emily Prentiss moments.

Music - Food for Soul

When I used to take my music lessons I remember my guruji telling me that music transcends all borders. A good composition will touch your soul. It's so true. I can still feel the hairs on my neck stand up every time I hear this musical composition.

Persuasion - Ellen Takes It to Another Level

I bet you would not have seen persuasion like this before. It's hilarious! Only Ellen can manage to do something like this.

Hats off to you Ellen. George Clooney had to come.

It's Been a Rollercoaster

What a week I must say. Have been running all around trying to meet deadlines, burning the midnight oil, having people scolding me for not taking rest, and then people complaining that I dont have time for them. But amidst all this i have found immense satisfaction. Knowing that you are a part of something that really counts itself is satisfying. And then I have this habit of losing myself when I believe I am doing something that holds value. But whatever it is work wise it has been terrific.

Now on the personal side, yes I have been missing a few key people of my life. But then I believe even they need to have their time and space. It's better to leave some people alone at times. It gives them a chance to recompose themselves. That's what I did. I gave you that space. And I hope it has worked. The other important thing that happened for me recently was that I finally found closure to something. I came through with something that I had promised someone a long time ago. And it feels good to know that now I am not tied to her anymore. Nothing relates me to her other than a few memories. I have forgiven her in my own way. I have finally given her the happy ending. But that was all that I owed her. I am no longer indebted or connected to her anymore. And this is it for us. At least now I can say that I have cut off all ties with her.

I still can't believe how we ever managed to come to this. There was a time when we were able to sense each other's thoughts. And now we dont even want to think of each other. But then life is always strange.

I Am Blessed

Yes that's true. I am utterly blessed with friends who stand up for me when I am feeling low. They roll their sleeves up whenever I give up. But most importantly they cry for me while I try to hide away my tears in some washroom. I do believe that I have done something really good in this life to have people like that around me. And I will always make sure that I cherish them to the fullest.

I had nearly lost it this time. I was so angry that I was losing control over myself. And then you guys stepped in. One wiped my tears while the other inspired me to calm down. Its only you two who could reach me and make sense to me. I hated myself for putting her through such shit and had almost given up on us. I knew she had made a concious choice but then I had never expected her to break down. It killed me to see her in a state like this. She had stopped smiling and talking. I never wanted this for her. But then like you said Crissy if I want her to have her respect back then the best way to start is by respecting her decision which is to be by my side. So this is what I will do. I will respect her enough to let her take the call this time.

But really guys, you two are just wonderful!!!