What a week I must say. Have been running all around trying to meet deadlines, burning the midnight oil, having people scolding me for not taking rest, and then people complaining that I dont have time for them. But amidst all this i have found immense satisfaction. Knowing that you are a part of something that really counts itself is satisfying. And then I have this habit of losing myself when I believe I am doing something that holds value. But whatever it is work wise it has been terrific.
Now on the personal side, yes I have been missing a few key people of my life. But then I believe even they need to have their time and space. It's better to leave some people alone at times. It gives them a chance to recompose themselves. That's what I did. I gave you that space. And I hope it has worked. The other important thing that happened for me recently was that I finally found closure to something. I came through with something that I had promised someone a long time ago. And it feels good to know that now I am not tied to her anymore. Nothing relates me to her other than a few memories. I have forgiven her in my own way. I have finally given her the happy ending. But that was all that I owed her. I am no longer indebted or connected to her anymore. And this is it for us. At least now I can say that I have cut off all ties with her.
I still can't believe how we ever managed to come to this. There was a time when we were able to sense each other's thoughts. And now we dont even want to think of each other. But then life is always strange.
Now on the personal side, yes I have been missing a few key people of my life. But then I believe even they need to have their time and space. It's better to leave some people alone at times. It gives them a chance to recompose themselves. That's what I did. I gave you that space. And I hope it has worked. The other important thing that happened for me recently was that I finally found closure to something. I came through with something that I had promised someone a long time ago. And it feels good to know that now I am not tied to her anymore. Nothing relates me to her other than a few memories. I have forgiven her in my own way. I have finally given her the happy ending. But that was all that I owed her. I am no longer indebted or connected to her anymore. And this is it for us. At least now I can say that I have cut off all ties with her.
I still can't believe how we ever managed to come to this. There was a time when we were able to sense each other's thoughts. And now we dont even want to think of each other. But then life is always strange.
Ok this one is for you BB.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry. i didnt mean to hurt you. but i do get insecure at times when it comes to you. i am just never too sure that i finally have u with me. and then i forget what drives u is ur passion. and that is what i have always loved about you. you fly high when you really do. and seeing you fly high scares me coz it means i am left behind somewhere. secondly, what u call a closure, i see it as a beginning. u now have a special bond with her. she is ur violet, ur first major creation. u wil never be able to separate urself from her now.
you are not competing with anybody crissy. you have your own place and importance. and no she is not my violet. now when i close my eyes and see violet i dont see her anymore. i see some other face to it.
ReplyDeletei know i dont compete and certainly not with a few people in your life. i forgot for a moment that time zone plays a role. i just wanted to talk to u badly that's all. and yes if u feel like sharing i would really like to know what you see for violet now. i would like to see that face through your eyes.
ReplyDeleteenjoy the ride while it is going on...
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