Have you ever felt rains in a parched desert land? The feeling is indescribable. But that's how I felt today.
Given that it was a Saturday, I had a lunch date with one of my friends. And it just happened to be so good. This friend and me - we have shared so much together. We have even been nicknamed the siamese twins by a few jealous people. But as if we ever cared. And then we all of a sudden lost that touch with each other. I always felt that we were together and yet we were not. I was busy getting things rolling and she was busy doing things. It felt like we were talking to each other and yet never shared anything. We seemed to have reached an unspoken agreement of not ruffling each other's feathers. We talked office politics and I thought what the hell are we doing. Why are we talking about some idiot who doesn't matter. Why are we not telling each other what's been going on. Or for that matter why am I not feeling comfortable telling her what's been going on with me.
But after today's lunch I feel light and good. It feels like I have my crazy friend back. We talked. I told her things from some of the deepest parts of my heart. And she being she joked and laughed and cheered me up.
If this is what it feels like to have rains in the desert I want to feel it again.
Given that it was a Saturday, I had a lunch date with one of my friends. And it just happened to be so good. This friend and me - we have shared so much together. We have even been nicknamed the siamese twins by a few jealous people. But as if we ever cared. And then we all of a sudden lost that touch with each other. I always felt that we were together and yet we were not. I was busy getting things rolling and she was busy doing things. It felt like we were talking to each other and yet never shared anything. We seemed to have reached an unspoken agreement of not ruffling each other's feathers. We talked office politics and I thought what the hell are we doing. Why are we talking about some idiot who doesn't matter. Why are we not telling each other what's been going on. Or for that matter why am I not feeling comfortable telling her what's been going on with me.
But after today's lunch I feel light and good. It feels like I have my crazy friend back. We talked. I told her things from some of the deepest parts of my heart. And she being she joked and laughed and cheered me up.
If this is what it feels like to have rains in the desert I want to feel it again.
Yes I agree...I have had that recently too...so I kno it happens..you lose that special touch in relations sometimes...but you just have to take some time for you and that person and believe me..if the base is strong...everything turns back to normal..it's just a matter of calling or talking to that person..taking that first step..but yes, make sure that you put a check on who is taking that first step whenever it happens becoz it should be from both ways..communication is always two ways..
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ReplyDelete:) I have had my share of crazy ideas in my childhood..one of them was if I can invent some way to store the fragrance of first rain of the season, as i always wanted to clung to it and never let that B'ful feeling go.This grew, when it came to people who are special to me, the cheer and happiness that they bring to my life.But I dint have any way.And that started taking its toll on me, i could not stand this failure of myself.After locking myself in a shell, i realized the truth. You can not hold people, but memories. Nothing is permanent. But yes, if we cherish every moment that we have, we can probably use it to lift ourselves even if the person is not around.:) I am not so good at writing so if anything hazy, I apologize :)
ReplyDeleteit looks like i have touched something within both of u here. kunjan i agree that u cannot hold on that people. that is why it is all the more important to cherish them while they are around. and tezdhar i agree that communication has to be two ways. no matter how important the person you cannot always end up being the one who has to understand and sacrifice. at times we expect that other person to stand up for us or go out of the way for us. at times we want that other person to be there for us instead of we being there for them all the time. but you never get in return everything that you give - at least not me. so i just face whatever it is i have and live it one day at a time and trying to make a change.
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