And Its a Goal

Yeeeeeesssss!!!! I had set the ball rolling for something in my career a month back. And now the ball seems to have hit the goal post.

I got my first closure today. I am running short of words now to describe what it means to me. I have worked my ass off trying to get this thing going. And now it has finally found its steam. I am sure we will keep on improving and we have a lot more closures in the pipeline.

And now comes the real frustrating part. I know I have something good to celebrate. But celebrate with whom? My colleagues can't know about this thing. My flatmates dont know the importance of this closure. I am not supposed to talk to people about it in the office. People who compete with me have no idea what I have achieved. I did share it with one person though. That has been my saving grace.

Its like you are given a reason to smile but you are not allowed to smile.

Rains in Desert

Have you ever felt rains in a parched desert land? The feeling is indescribable. But that's how I felt today.

Given that it was a Saturday, I had a lunch date with one of my friends. And it just happened to be so good. This friend and me - we have shared so much together. We have even been nicknamed the siamese twins by a few jealous people. But as if we ever cared. And then we all of a sudden lost that touch with each other. I always felt that we were together and yet we were not. I was busy getting things rolling and she was busy doing things. It felt like we were talking to each other and yet never shared anything. We seemed to have reached an unspoken agreement of not ruffling each other's feathers. We talked office politics and I thought what the hell are we doing. Why are we talking about some idiot who doesn't matter. Why are we not telling each other what's been going on. Or for that matter why am I not feeling comfortable telling her what's been going on with me.

But after today's lunch I feel light and good. It feels like I have my crazy friend back. We talked. I told her things from some of the deepest parts of my heart. And she being she joked and laughed and cheered me up.

If this is what it feels like to have rains in the desert I want to feel it again.

Moon River

If you are an Audrey Hepburn fan then you all know about Breakfast at Tiffany's. This is one song where Audrey lent her voice and made it almost angelic. Enjoy!

This One is For Me

What do I say? Finally I have been reduced to the level of a comic character. But at least it's my favorite character - the scrat.

Sigh the ever elusive and oblivious acorn!

Feel Good

Ok I have been feeling good lately. And you tezdhaar are the reason for it. Having you join the WB gang has been really wonderful. You have made me feel real good about it.

And that brings me to the new Coca Cola ad. Prasoon Joshi excels in this one again. Very rarely do we come across ads that remind us how beautiful the world still is despite all its nonsense. Bravo for this one!

I Did It!

Yes i finally did it. My team finally went live and we have got excellent response from the market. The concept has clicked and our hard word has finally paid off. I recieved a big email from my client thanking me for all my time and efforts that I put in this project. According to him its going far better than he expected. I had played multiple roles in this project. I hired, I trained, I managed, I understood the system, I mapped out processes.... whew!

Now looking back I dont know what made me manage so many things. I dont know how I managed to get through all this. And what scares me is I did it while I was still struggling to get the other critical client on board with presentation and stuff. Although its too early to judge anything, we are sure that with the way things are rolling out we have caught the market pulse. Now we just have to wait for the season to kick off. Even during off season we are being considered a hit!

At least now mom you would be proud of me. You once said you were not concerned with what I achieved in my professional life. Now does it make a difference? Or do I still need to be like others and want conventional and regular things from life?

To Say or Not to Say

maine kuchh kaha aur usne kuchh kaha nahi
bas yahi gum hai aur to kuchh hua nahi

aisa nahi ki usne sunke unsuna kar diya mujhe
bas maine jo mehsus kiya usne kabhi kiya nahi

dil ki baat batakar uska bharosa to jeeta maine
magar ab apne aap par bharosa mujhe raha nahi

use masoom kahu laparwah kahu ya zalim kahu
woh meri baat smajhkar bhi jo samjha nahi

chand roz guzar jaane do woh bhul jayega use
chhoti si dil ki baat thi koi lamba vakiya nahi

jo dil toota ho kabhi kisi ki khamoshi se
woh dil kisi ke alfazo se kabhi juda nahi

For things that werent' left unsaid but were certainly avoided or left unheard.